Board Thread:Rights Interest/@comment-5619531-20141005224852

My name is Fatal Disease, and I am re-applying for bureaucrat on this site. I decided to apply for bureaucrat right now than wait a few months is because of current times, and that I think the site would benefit for a fourth bureaucrat.

The reason why I am applying right now than later is because we have three bureaucrats that present the wiki physically, while there is one that represents the site mentally—another one lurks around because there is nothing to do (even though I checked the logs and saw that both bureaucrats are somewhat active, but my reasoning still stands). That is why I put italics on the fourth. Another reason why I am applying right now is because Xelrog said on Callie's talkpage on Creepypasta that there needs to be an active bureaucrat here. Since I'm active on here a lot, I think that I should step in again and take a load off of everyone's backs.

There needs to be three active or semi-active bureaucrats on the site in case a decision can't be made, and we need a bureaucrat to notice stuff going on the wiki. Skelly is slowly recovering from his burnouts and starting to go back to his editing ways on Creepypasta; Callie is starting to have burnouts over her music and helps out on Creepypasta most of the time, making Xelrog the only user on the site that can be considered a community leader.

I did say to Callie that me applying for this right is a want, but I did say to her that it was a need for the site. The need for it on the site is to have an actual third bureaucrat; a need of a bureaucrat that can be on top of something when an issue arises; a bureaucrat to notice the good users on this site, and a bureaucrat that notices that the rules need to be updated. The want part is me not wanting to ask Callie or Xelrog to do this or that; wanting Xelrog to have a little bit less on his plate, and wanting to build up our team and get rid of inactive members (and I do notice one user that seems to be good for rollback, probably RCaDC).

I was hesitant to re-apply for this because we lack of administrators, and that this wiki is nearly a dead wiki. We have three bureaucrats and two admins, and if I get the right SG would be the only administrator that doesn't have bureaucratic powers. I still have a feeling that our activity will slowly increase because Jeff is here. It's still a very, very sleepy wiki, but I feel that this site will become as active as it was back in October 2013 - March 2014. Will it be right now? No. Will it be later on? Yes. And with that, there needs to be

Before I end this app, I want to say something that covers the past. I know I have made a shit-load of mistakes on this site—some of these mistakes can make me not trusted by some members of the community and vote oppose. I think I should discuss about them separately, and prove to some people I've changed.

The chat was a big problem for me during the CPW chat shutdown. There was excessive drama before and after the migration and the trial. It wasn't until long that I cracked and took that joke Skelly made into effect, and following was Callie on this miscommuncation. I do take full responsibility of those actions. I did apologize for these actions that I created an apology thread and unbanned those who done nothing wrong, rather than let someone else do it. I know that it was a great mistake that fled through the pasta wikis that words can't really explain how sorry I am. Just to let you know that I know that it'll never again, with or without me cracking.

Another thing about the chat for me was my self-banning on the two active chats. It was because I was afraid of stress that users may cause. After realizing that it made me feel like a weak man I asked Xelrog if I can undo it. He then decides to undo it for me. I know that the chat isn't a stressor to me now, nor will it ever will be for the rest of my time here. Sure there are some users that go a little bit over-board on stuff, but I think that I can manage it by doing something else. I do have self-control, and I do know that this site is not my life.

Back around late August-early September, the site used to be a major stressor to me. I made a blog post about this site being understaffed; me feeling that I was the only one that did all of the deletion work, and complained about certain users with rights not using their rights that they requested. It was terrible that I ranted/complained a lot to Callie. But, after being slapped a second time by Xelrog, I did learn how to cool myself down and accept that there isn't a lot of people on this site. After realizing that, I took a break from the wiki, and I feel refreshed from any stress I was feeling about this site—or any site.

I know I haven't been that active like I used to, but I am getting back on the ropes of things. I know that the right is not supposed to be a reward for all the good things I have done in the past (like constructing this site to be the site like it is now), but I do know that the right is a leadership role.

 