User blog:Cruelgirl9671/totally shocked right now

well today im totally shocked and happy but mostly shocked i am shocked cuz my best friend died in a car accident and im just finding out about it and im happy cuz today is my boyfriend's 19th birthday and i get to see him today. i really need to talk about the death and heartbreak of my best friend. this is killing me.

well i went to the counselor at my school and we were talking about things and i started talking about my best friend Dalton Neidecker and i said that i rlly needed to talk to him just then my counselor said that he had died in a car accident with his stepdad and i just froze i cant tell u how much my heart broke just then. i can tell u that it was slowly eating me alive cuz i remembered that the last thing i said to him was i had a miscarriage with his best friend's kid and my heart just broke into millions of pieces i hate that i didnt know about his death and i hate that his family has to go through this he was only 18 and his sister is expecting a girl soon and i feel bad that his niece doesnt get to meet her uncle i will miss him so much cuz he was like a brother to me i cant go through another death in my life the next death in my life and i will be gone as well i cant take the heartache anymore........... im tired of crying myself to sleep............goodbye life..................saying farewell is hard but at least i will be happy in life......my new life.................